Mood:  chillin'

So my bestie inspired me today to get back on my livejournal and kind re-visit who I used to be.  It was fun to see how much more happy and carefree I was when I was a teen then now.  And back then I thought I had a hard life (boy was I off). I also discovered that I used to write poetry, I used to want to be a poet, I mean I'm still in the same workfield but...

I miss it now that I remember what it used to mean to me.  It used to come to me, I used to get inspired. What happened? Well I think I know what happened, I had been working on a book of poetry I had been writing sing the second grade (when I decided that I was going to be a writer) and when we lost the house we lost all of the stuff we couldn't carry with us. Unfortunately I had all of my poems, and two other books I had wrote in my senior year of high school, all on the computer. Someone has either erased it all or has access to all of my hard work.

No time to dwell. But I thought I would go ahead and post what tidbits I found on here.

June 11, 2003

Lost Souls travel in the night
Together at last
They aren't so lost anymore.

June 18th, 2003

I sit in a chair, staring at a screen
Not real, but so close to reality
So I confide in it, telling my every secret
Only to have it expose me to the world.

Those are the only two I found, as I was reading it a lot of different emotions went through me and I don't think I want to live through those again. I am finally appreciating not being a teenager anymore (surprise, surprise) and I'm actually ok with it. Now turning 30 is a different story...

Mood:  not sure

So I was fired the other day.  

Shouldn't I be happy?  It gives me more time to write my book and work on my craft business.  But I honestly put so much time and effort into that job it makes me a bit bitter.  I was actually trying to quit anyways, but they beat me to the punch.

Sucks to be me.

And so here we are, my "boyfriend" and I. Two jobless SOBs in a semi-expensive apartment with no sight of money anywhere.  What to do, what to do? I want to write and get inspired, but I am just bogged down with all of these responsibilities that I'm finding it really hard to see the light.  Every night before I go to bed I get motivated, and when I wake up I'm motivated, but it's the in-between time is what I need help in.  Maybe I should get a motivational speaker, oh wait they cost money.

Great... 

Mood:  bright

So it's finally time for me to return to my blog.  Don't think anyone is reading, but I need to start figuring out how to market myself more (and making people aware of my blog).

Yesterday Michael Jackson, the self-proclaimed King of Pop, died and was deeply saddened.  But that's all that I am going to say.  For the better part of his life he just wanted to be known for his music and be left alone outside of that. And even now, even in death, he still can't achieve that.  So I know I am only one voice, but I promise if I can help it that one voice will not be heard.  If something about him is on TV I might watch, but when they speak of things that have nothing to do with his music I will not hesitate to change the channel.  I will not mention him unless asked or about a song I am listening to at the time. I am very serious.  I will not be apart of the tearing apart of his legacy.  They want to eat him alive like they did Anna Nicole.  I love you MJ and I will be strong enough to do what others can't. *end*

So I am in such a creative mood right now. I am going through the closet where all my craft-ish stuff and seeing what I can use and what I can't.  I am also listening to Mandarin music to help me get more familiar with the language.  It has become my passion to learn this language, and I can't wait until I master it (or at least be able to hold a decent conversation).  I am also working on my first book, whenever an idea comes to mind I'm trying to localize it so I can pull from it later.  What a constructive day this is turning out to be. 

Mood:  chatty

Random things you might wonder or never thought to ask...

•My name is Keiome which is Japanese for "Seed of clear and holy beauty" and my last name (currently) is Meadows.  So it's like the seed of clear and holy beautiful grass and flowers.

•My middle name is Anita, which is my mother's first name.  Her middle name is Frances; which I love and she is not too fond of.  Her best friend since the 7th grade's middle name is Anita too.  Actually she was Jackie Anita Green and my mom was Anita Green, that probably led to them being friends.  And then when Jackie had her daughter, she gave her the same middle name.  On the rare occasions we are all together, someone always brings that up.

•If the only job I could ever do was organize and alphabetize I would consider it my Heaven on earth

•I am so sensitive. It doesn't take much to make me cry. I was never really teased (to my face) about being big, but i was teased all the way through my senior year of high school for being a "cry baby"

•I have wanted to be a writer since the 2nd grade in Mrs. Wynn's class. I wrote a paper about my dog eating my favorite Cabbage Patch doll. I apparently translated my emotions well because the next morning she told me she went around to all of the teacher's and showed off my paper. It inspired me then, and I'm in school now to get closer to my dream.

•I was accused of plagerism in the 7th grade by my language arts teacher (what's her name, the blonde lady from the Green Gators). I did a book report on The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton and she thought i copied it straight from the back of the book. But what she didn't know is that I was OBSESSED with the movie ever since I saw it on Dinner & A Movie, and then read the book and then listened to the book on tap. My name was cleared the same day.

•I feel like I'm the only person in the world who hasn't been to Disneyworld.

•I almost joined the Airforce, I just felt like it was the right thing to do.

•Most of my friends that I have now, I've had since elementary school. I have only 4 friends that I didn't attend school with (elementary, middle, and/or high school)

•I think Devon Sawa and Christina Ricci were the cutest couple in the early 90's (Casper and Now & Then) and I'm still a bit obsessed.

•I hate feet!!!! I just hate them, ALL of them. I can't have people touch mine, I can't touch any that don't belong to me. It's just... ugh!!!!

•Computers and the whole world of computers have no appeal to me whatsover. I hate them. Okay, I don't hate them, but I don't like them as much as my generation does. But I do enjoy how easy it is to connect to things online. And my fiance is all about computers and technology.

•My musical taste is very ecclectic, but it wasn't always that way. I used to listen to rap and R&B only. Then one day when I was like 9 or something I was in the car with my mom and i got yelled at for knowing the words to "Gin and Juice." So I stopped listening to anything that wasn't soft rock. By the time I hit high school, I started watching MTV and got into everything.

•I love Rainbows. I don't care what anyone has to say, I love the colors. it was my favorite color in elementary school. : )

•The movie Pay It Forward changed my life. It IS a way of lfe for me.

•I will put it in my funeral plans that I must be buried in T-shirt and jeans. Preferably a tee with something funny written on it.

•I bought a guinea pig because i couldn't get a puppy just yet. Then two months later she gave birth to 3 guinea babies. 4 for the price of 1.... yay...

•I think we secretly all want to be a rock star

•New shower curtian smell is my favorite smell

•My security blanket is anything Disney related... or musicals. I sleep better, I'm happier, and just more comfortable.  To steal a quote from my friend Casey's facebook page:

"When and if I ever have children, they'll probably like me in their first years because I love watching Disney movies. Probably not so much when they turn teenagers and they have to watch Pocahontas for the thousandth time."

•I can't remember a time where I wasn't referred to as chipper, perky, or any other word that means the same thing. At work I am sometimes known as Care Bear and Miss Sunshine. But if the world only knew...

•I love History. My current interests is Biblical History. I just find it facisinating. Before that it was Poahontas. I love museums and historical sites too.

•I am extremely friendly, but I don't make friends that easily.

•I am so empathetic that a lot of movies and music, and even some awesome television shows, stir me up and leave a lingering impression on me for most of the night.

Mood:  accident prone

Hi!  I'm Keiome Meadows, and it's my time to shine.  I just thought I have so many ideas and thoughts I might as well put it out there.  Not that I have to time for a website and a blog; but, eh, at least I'm not doing drugs (poor Phelps).

I'm a 24 year old who's afraid of turning 25.  I'm engaged, but have no real idea of when I'm really going to get married.  And I'm a Pharmacy Technician who dreams of writing or at least being immersed in the world of books.

Life is complicated, but is starting to get fun.

More later...